Helping dissapoints me .

I am just trying to help . humans really dont know how to appreciate others .
I really get very mad. Its like im nothing in this house . I have heart, Im a human.
Please appreciate for what I've done to you , when I hate you I'll automatically blacklisted you from my heart. That's me , like I said ' people change , I don't '.
the story starts here , right here .

mommy asked me to bake a cake to bring to Dubai while visiting our cousin. And I helped , all I did was weighing the ingredients , like sugar , flour , planta and I thought i did it right.But apparently I didn't. i really love to cook and bake , but im a noob i knew that. I cant even use all senses.When the cake was done , my maid is the one who put the cake out of its baking dish to put it on the plate.And the cake got stuck , so i just came to check out cuz that time i was onlining.when i came there , she suddenly said softly , ' if u put a bit more margerine on the baking dish it wouldnt be this bad.' what actually happened was the cake was the top layer of the cake was a little bit stuck on the baking dish.And the cake wasnt really nice.SO , i went to taste the cake.It really tastes good.infact , were gonna cut the cake into pieces and put it in a tupperware when bringing it to dubai.
is that even a problem ? TAKKAN ! Then I called my mom , she came there than she rises her voice and say ' takpernah dalam hidup cake ni jadi mcm nih . this is less margarine and less planta ' than my maid point at me , my mum says ' make sure the next time u bake this cake add more margarine to the baking dish ' I was totally pissed off , and i just go to the front and continue to my facebook . THAT WOULD BE THE BEST .

IM not baking anymore , and I really hate that .
I really hope there somebody could ever understand me , my family didnt knew this .

they thought i was stressed because my cake was the worst .
Im really tired , can't you see ?

-HanisSyazana

boredom never ends yet :|

UH . Im way bored this holidays , thought of doing homeworks but yeah , i will procastinate . :D nothing much kbye .


Hanissyazana :D

TOOTHACHE . :|

Uh . I've been spending two weeks AT HOME with no shopping . I got bored . That's my main hobby though ! Well , flying to Dubai next week thursday visiting cousins as well as Misha ! COOL :) well , I hope I get crazy with the malls overthere .HAHA :D

now , Im hurt . really really hurt . I got TOOTHACHE . great huh ? well , wearing braces RIGHT after i got back from dubai . Ohh maannn . I just cant wait , but feel the pain :)

Today , there's A GUY called me for no reason , I knew the guy but then like hell yeah he's such a lame , dont have to tell yah who it is . Rummors might occur .:)
He's freaky , but pretty good . haha i ignored him like hell yeah I have no time for guys right now , just get the hell outta my life . I dont need you , dont get near me .

im bored . I love repeating my name because its way awesome . my dad teased me because the dentist pulled 4 tooth and he said I eat like a sea-lion :| how guhreat daddy , yeah thats very funny . WOAH daddy you'll see when i got on my braces , they'll bring me to beauty :) HAHA :)

guhreaaaaaaaaat :) IMHANISSYAZANAANDIREALLYLOVEMYNAME :)

I LOVE MY TOOTH :D

I left you just like that .

YO BUHLOG .

Sorry I didn't update you for MONTHS .

I got busy quite days ,

And like hell yeah I put you aside :)

SORAY :D

Well , its the end year holidays now . 2010 <3

I used to HATE school so MUCH . BUT , lately I've been dreaming for what I've done in school .

I miss SSP ? Guess so :)

I don't have ANY excitements for next year , thought of starting a new life , having a DORM SISTER , andd like yeah , new goals , but NO . and NOTHING .

I think I've been trained to be a JAYJAY . So nothing could compares with FORM ONE. UH .

well , Im in 2T next year . OH IM SO GLAD .NOT !

my friends , they all went to UPPER CLASSES , yeah , they're smart and im not . just because i got a B in science . my ranking DROPPED , like an egg fallen from thetop of the mountain .

yes , thats it .

I dont know who my classmate is . well , for all you know its all the RULEBREAKERS . omagah .

imagine . and I know who my Class teacher is gonna be . THAT FREAKING OLD WOMAN . She's so creepy , ohh I could saayy . she really hates students , she blows EVERY MINUTE OF HER LIFE . she's old , HEHE . please , Im really sorry to say but I just dont know where Im going next year ,

Its like hell , No FRIENDS , NO HAPPY CLASS , DORM ? uh how if i get this girl who really loves to sneak in others lockers and STEAL !

C'mon . Life is really hard . hard in a way of physically ? It doesn't matter , how if life with no happiness ? no family ? all u have is just a bunch of jerks . ALL AROUND YOU .

There , nobody EVER understand me . I really nneeed to tell you this . I cant keep it anymore .

I love my seafieldian friends , way better compared to ssp . im sorry , but not all of you CHILL . just a certain jerks who hates me and they cant stand my happiness there .

Im sad , im a loner , Happiness in school are all gone , ALL . studies ? tell me about it .

I sacrifice all this , for my future and parents , and god .

NOT for anybody else . take that .

I wish , what I thought about next year , will never be true . Pray for my happiness there , and my future .

I really respect and appreciate what the school gave to me , all the opportunities I got .

And Im suppose to be thankful . Yes I am . VERY .

but , its just like yeah .

Well , This is my journey through out Sekolah Seri Puteri , And also journey to heaven .