FASTING (: RAMADHAN HEYHO :D

HEYHEYHEYHEY (:
Long time no updated HUH ?
here i am once again .
right , a week ago , my class had represented a drama during the english week entitled rumpelstiltskin . It was beyond awesome that it'll reveal the truth for victory TODAY (:
I was expected to win for best actress *blushes* , i never knew i could act . but i wasnt that hoping after all i felt that wiqi taking part as rumpelstiltskin is better than me .
But im just happy for myself and my class , because we did the best with full cooperation in staying up LATE practicing , paying . oh god please make it worth (: amin .

tommorow is my last day of re-fasting HAHA i dont really know the word its ganti puasa yes . hahah ! well , less than a week . ramadhan approaches and here we go on eidul fitr :D

haha , ill post to you my pictures on fine day alright (; hehe . im really worried about my mother . she's been really stressed out and . oh my god .
" Ya allah , tolong kuatkan iman dan semangatkan ibuku dan juga tabahkan hatinya menempuh segala dugaan ini . hanya engkaulah maha memberi pertolongan " Amin .

memories , anniversary in ssp (:

and yes , i understand every father in the world somehow , cant tell you . get me tears into pails .

btw , i got my exam result like a piece of shit . betcha , dont ask .

thank god , im officially a form two in ssp (: proudly to say its official that i've stayed there for one year already . yippee !

3 years upcoming , if i might get to see this post . again . that would me epic. imma form 5 by than ! WHOOH , stalked k.nadzira . HEEEEE -.- HAHAH her blog , was like . my god , bring me to the world mann -.-

HAHA , hopefully 5 years is just a snap ! :D hmm gtg ! BYE
love : HANIS

memories

HI ,
theres a lot more things i wanna share with you but its too personal , and i may talk to myself.
Im now in my hometown .

We were here because one of my grandparents make a KENDURI , and we have like this homestay thinggy .

Onthewayy , while we were still packing our things at home . we seemed to not find much things we need such as crabbing shoe < i hate you .

while finding , i got blamed for EVERYTHING , every single thing i tell . my dad;s medicine we're lost . and he put the blame on me i was like WTH . i'm not even at home for god sake . i really got stressed out and i almost ran away from home .

my mum consoled me well , that i control myself than .
while i was asleep coz im tired of thinking , my sis waked me up cause my dad's calling me . and he was like mad yelling at me , i just keep my ear tight all I know is i wanna go to bed . so whatever ,

but like seriously , my mum and my sister felt weird why everything is blamed on me , just me . I really got pissed of till now ,
my dad tried to console me , but my heart still couldnt accept . i dont care what happened , sometimes when my heart is closed for somebody , it will be really heart to get me back , because you're my DAD . i have to ,if you're my uncle or somebody . DONT DREAM . Im really really really pissed off , i have no mood to go to my holiday , but i just have to , or else HE GETS MAD . i wish imma dad , easy kan ? rule the house nobody cares . I really feel like killing myself though . but yes its my fate to get that kind of DAD , and i bet im not the only one , my cousins kena even worse . so yeah be grateful .

furthermore , im in boarding school what must I care . i dont have to see his face every single day . EASY . like seriously im really pissed off . im really avoiding myself to cry because my eye will get swollen like crazy . but dont care anymore .

thats all .

Love hanis . :'(

TAFAAAAK

gila tk boleh on fb now like WTF ? . back in a fortnight bye !

yeah , imma piece of shit .

OHH please im really glad that i stay in boarding school . I wish i never come home , i thought it heaven but its just like wtf ?

my sis is sooooo annoying , she says im jeolous for everything she has . wtf ? ME JEOLOUS ? get lost . for what ? im happy for my life though , LAME !
one more , LAME plus LOSER point which she told me that im jeolous of her because she cud wear short skirt get the hell outa my life mann -.-

MUST I . exactly , totally NO its a bigno , if i asked i 1 year old girl , she's probally say no and STUPID . they said my action workd like that wtf ? what thehell did i do ? ME JEOLOUS . lol get a life . i rather be jeolous of a cat for not going to school than getting jeolous of you HANIS SYAIRAH . get a lifee ! puhlees . im not a piece of sshiitt ! . so happy now ? for gettig A NEW BEEBEE . LOL . and she says im jeolous again waaaathhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaafaaaaaaaaak ? she uses my phone for 9 months ! and its like , you cud imagine how the phone looks like when it drops for MANY times , imagine i juz use that phone for 4 months cuz im in boarding school . SHE SHOULD BE LUCKY , SO STFU !

One more , my mother . she says im lack of respect . YES i admit that . Im just trying to defend myself . IF NOT . I will be stepped like a piece of shit !

PLEEASSSEE . I NID A LIFE , 13 is the worse PLEEES . I HATE YOU , I HAVE A LIFE !PLEEEEEEEEEEESSSEEEEEEEEEEEE . understand me . PLS . Im tired of this .

Helping dissapoints me .

I am just trying to help . humans really dont know how to appreciate others .
I really get very mad. Its like im nothing in this house . I have heart, Im a human.
Please appreciate for what I've done to you , when I hate you I'll automatically blacklisted you from my heart. That's me , like I said ' people change , I don't '.
the story starts here , right here .

mommy asked me to bake a cake to bring to Dubai while visiting our cousin. And I helped , all I did was weighing the ingredients , like sugar , flour , planta and I thought i did it right.But apparently I didn't. i really love to cook and bake , but im a noob i knew that. I cant even use all senses.When the cake was done , my maid is the one who put the cake out of its baking dish to put it on the plate.And the cake got stuck , so i just came to check out cuz that time i was onlining.when i came there , she suddenly said softly , ' if u put a bit more margerine on the baking dish it wouldnt be this bad.' what actually happened was the cake was the top layer of the cake was a little bit stuck on the baking dish.And the cake wasnt really nice.SO , i went to taste the cake.It really tastes good.infact , were gonna cut the cake into pieces and put it in a tupperware when bringing it to dubai.
is that even a problem ? TAKKAN ! Then I called my mom , she came there than she rises her voice and say ' takpernah dalam hidup cake ni jadi mcm nih . this is less margarine and less planta ' than my maid point at me , my mum says ' make sure the next time u bake this cake add more margarine to the baking dish ' I was totally pissed off , and i just go to the front and continue to my facebook . THAT WOULD BE THE BEST .

IM not baking anymore , and I really hate that .
I really hope there somebody could ever understand me , my family didnt knew this .

they thought i was stressed because my cake was the worst .
Im really tired , can't you see ?

-HanisSyazana

boredom never ends yet :|

UH . Im way bored this holidays , thought of doing homeworks but yeah , i will procastinate . :D nothing much kbye .


Hanissyazana :D