memories

HI ,
theres a lot more things i wanna share with you but its too personal , and i may talk to myself.
Im now in my hometown .

We were here because one of my grandparents make a KENDURI , and we have like this homestay thinggy .

Onthewayy , while we were still packing our things at home . we seemed to not find much things we need such as crabbing shoe < i hate you .

while finding , i got blamed for EVERYTHING , every single thing i tell . my dad;s medicine we're lost . and he put the blame on me i was like WTH . i'm not even at home for god sake . i really got stressed out and i almost ran away from home .

my mum consoled me well , that i control myself than .
while i was asleep coz im tired of thinking , my sis waked me up cause my dad's calling me . and he was like mad yelling at me , i just keep my ear tight all I know is i wanna go to bed . so whatever ,

but like seriously , my mum and my sister felt weird why everything is blamed on me , just me . I really got pissed of till now ,
my dad tried to console me , but my heart still couldnt accept . i dont care what happened , sometimes when my heart is closed for somebody , it will be really heart to get me back , because you're my DAD . i have to ,if you're my uncle or somebody . DONT DREAM . Im really really really pissed off , i have no mood to go to my holiday , but i just have to , or else HE GETS MAD . i wish imma dad , easy kan ? rule the house nobody cares . I really feel like killing myself though . but yes its my fate to get that kind of DAD , and i bet im not the only one , my cousins kena even worse . so yeah be grateful .

furthermore , im in boarding school what must I care . i dont have to see his face every single day . EASY . like seriously im really pissed off . im really avoiding myself to cry because my eye will get swollen like crazy . but dont care anymore .

thats all .

Love hanis . :'(